I’m a couple days late posting this. I originally had a post completed sharing my resolutions for personal, physical, and work related areas of life. One resolution I vowed to make was to “workout more” or “get pre-baby (if not earlier) body back”. Another resolution I explained was to “find an organization to volunteer at and give back to my community more”. I also had down to “better maintain my house and stay on top of laundry”. Basically all of my resolutions revolved around the theme “BE BETTER” at what I do day to day. Be a better version of what I already am; a better mother, a better wife, a better Real Estate agent and a better friend. I had my goals and I was ready to put them to the world so I could be held accountable and stick to them.
I wrote the entire blog on December 30th and I was proud of myself for getting it done in the hustle and bustle of the holiday. The next morning, before December faded away, I was going to hit “publish” and then look forward to January 1st and making all my resolutions count.
Then sometimes when you least expect it (and usually when you need it the most), life has a way of smacking you in the face.
The next morning, at about 2 am, my 8 month old woke up screaming. He had a fever of 102 and was inconsolable. He had cut 3 new teeth Christmas Day (insert 2 front teeth song) and developed a bit of a head cold, so I figured it was lingering effects from that. After making sure the fever broke, and finally getting him back to sleep around 5am, I went to bed stressed. Stressed that the next day, January 1st, with a HUGE to do list on how I was going to “be better”, was going to be dreadful. I had projects around the house, clients to contact, paperwork to do and of course a new diet and exercise plan to start right?! How was I going to get all this done having been up all night? And what if he isn’t better in the morning? I stressed about my daunting to do list for so long, next thing I knew I was still awake at 7am and my little one was screaming once again.
By the end of the day, after a trip to the doctor uncovering a massive ear infection and being puked on about 14 times, I had done NOTHING on my list. Day one of 2017 and I had already failed. I didn’t get a stitch of work done, I barely had time to eat left over pizza and I was exhausted. I sat down on the couch and felt defeated. I then saw an advertisement from Fisher-Price that really hit home. In a nut shell, it listed a litany of resolutions, all of which were on my list, that lead to a heart rate flat line. All around the idea of being perfect. After, it gave a list of resolutions that SHOULD be priority that really made me think. The list said IN 2017 I WILL: SLOW DOWN. I will cuddle more, take time, unscheduled, let things go, play more, breathe, stress less and enjoy more.
It was a very simple ad I think about 30 seconds long, but in that moment I stopped and looked around me. In the last 24 hours, I was a mom, a wife, a friend. I was a Realtor, a professional and a confidant. I laughed, I cried, and I made someone else smile at least once. I cared for a little boy who was sick and needed me. I may not have had time to shower or get any laundry done, but I managed to spend time and laugh until I cried with my husband, in a way we hadn’t in a while. Suddenly, all of my guilt from not being perfect and not being better that day seemed to melt away. Why was I beating myself up to measure up to these unreal expectations I’ve set for myself? Where did these expectations come from? Of course with anything in life there is always room for improvement, learning and growth. But at that moment, when there was plenty of time left in the day to crack open my lap top, post my resolution blog, fire off a few emails to clients and plan my marketing strategy for the entire week, I decided I had done enough. I had spent so much time worrying about what I wasn’t getting done that I didn’t really see what I had accomplished. I immediately unplugged and ENJOYED the first day of 2017 getting my butt kicked in a ping pong game with my hubby.
Sitting here now I guess I need to make some changes to my list.
Here are my NEW 2017 New Year Resolutions:
1. Completely unplug at least once a week
2. Block off 2 hours a day for physical activity and reading or reflection (one hour am and one hour pm). NOT just for my appearance, but to de-stress, live a healthier life and set a good example for my son
3. Reconnect and spend more time and effort to keep in touch with friends near and far
4. Meet 2 new people each day
If I can meet or exceed anything on this list, I really truly will have spent 2017 being a better version of myself.
And hey, if I can get a load of laundry done in the meantime then I consider that a bonus!